Monthly Archives: April 2007

eager

walking sunset strip staring at stars… the answer is ‘try harder’. that is the message. i have everything i ever wished for – to be older, to have an honest love. i have the support and inspiration…. now is the time to try harder. to not be in the know with all i think i know, the caustic mental masturbation… there is so much to do, to learn. i sit here long after the car has shut off. i am neither conductor nor follower. i am just me. i listen to crickets, to a neighbor claiming her climax, to my cat urging me to the front door. there are shadow sounds beyond the fear that i ignore. i open the door. i am expected here. there are obligations and emails… i surpass both for the sake of meditation…. i intend to stay here til dawn…. i am clouded and eager…