Monthly Archives: December 2006

2006 recap

i scan my calendar trying to grasp all that has happened this year. new faces, new cities, growing, evolving, rampaging the world… in 2006, i traveled to england, holland, belguim, canada, washington, oregon, colorado, wisconsin, kansas, arizona, new york, new jersey, texas, nevada, vegas, connecticut… and drove through most of the states in between.

my work is now out there, marching soldiers that do my bidding while i plan out my next circus, this fast approaching 2007 of which i have various plans for world domination stemming from a desire to get back into directing music videos and writing these festering books, the ones that keep me up at night, that pop out at the seams and demand a re-focusing. Video 2007 is the new Photography 2006 and Writing is just the after-effect of all these amazing experiences that i horde in my heart and mind as i ride out my river. my brain tries to flip the switch to this new direction but this obsession with Photography doesn’t seem to want to wane… i keep taking on photo projects against sense and reason…but i’m happy…. truly happy….. i eat from my art… i pay rent from my art…. i have a deep and important love, one that I will base a family on soon… i have supportive family, buoyant health…

i fall more and more in love with my friends… growing and weaving in and out of their projects… mutaytor, vau de vire society, gooferman, lucent dossier… my origin, my loves…years now of shooting them as we grow up together, do our dance of personal and professional assimilation… sometimes it is necessary to take a step back in order to surge forward in futures unwritten but they are at the heart of my inspiration, a permanent place in my gratitude pool.

i’ve learned so much through the various communities i’ve been involved with this year… the bellydance community has affected me in so many ways… empowering women has been a thrill… the cabaret community, the circus community, the burning man community, the faerie community… musicians, models, performers, dancers, hoopers, fire, feathers, sequins, zils, mustaches, drums, wings, parties on boats, in forests, in clubs, in limousines and deserts…

i’ve shot legends and celebrities, been published in dozens of magazines and newspapers, tutored upcoming photographers and formed amazing relationships with clients, ones that teach me so much about life and art. i’ve photographed their businesses, their children, their performances, their emotions… i’ve taken portraits of pets, of families, a few of which leave this world soon after… i save the letters… i save the emails…to be involved with the personal lives of strangers, with their memories, is important to me… to be involved with culture, to capture something worthwhile that people can look back and remember these years, this time, all the magick that we are creating, is important to me…a faerie scribe with quill constantly raised, eyes constantly open… it’s incredible what is happening right now… I feel it surging through me daily and want to remember it all… that i have a choice of medium to do that now is exciting…

I rarely stop and take stock of this… the reality of not having perspective of all that has happened this year is now morphing into awareness…which has led to learning and protection… I’ve been in the bouncy castle of go!go!go! and I am none the worse for it, much to the surprise of almost everyone around me. my body somehow gets what it needs, a slave sometimes to my mind and shutter-release…but it’s now rested and ready for more…

i’ve also learned a lot this year about my limitations… mostly that i don’t have any… limitations are mere tricks of the mind, ‘enough’ is a dis-ease… i could never have enough of this life… i could never take 100 photos of a party and go home… i’ve overdosed on the sweet candy of inspiration and ended up full circle spiral on top of this personal banister i created…. looking up now, I see there are more staircases, more plateaus i want to reach. although i don’t know exactly what they are, i know they are mine for the asking…. i will get there…

sister love

i watch strong winds peel overdue leaves from branches… they gather at my doorstep as if to prove there are seasons here… today i stood outside in a sun shower. today i smiled at an unexpected box of candy goodness from my sister, diana~ we take turns pretending the other is just away at summer camp. she has recently relocated to new york city, starting her 20’s living with her boyfriend, commuting on subways to work… new york city is a parallel universe that still grips me~ from the impersonal rushing, smushing bodies up in subway cars during rush hour… to the bliss of a day in central park and knowing home is just a quick bus ride away, that clear shot right down route 9… dad at the kitchen table after work, clearing his throat sorting thru the day’s mail, content to eat leftover chinese food while doling out life advice for the asking…. she’ll be fine in new york city… she’s ready… she’s right on time….